Limp arms and screams

Well, while cashing out today at work i got a phone call from the dayhome lady (lets call her d.l.)... there is horrible cell reception in the building i work in so i tried to run to the door to answer it... she couldn't hear me, but i could hear Vi SCREAMING like i've never heard before.  so i hung up and went outside.  i called her back and she said "we've had a little accident", my heart fell to the ground and i wanted to vomit...  i could hear Vi crying still, and Greyson talking in the background, so i figured it couldn't be too bad... right? both kids were conscious:)

she then explained to me that Vi was napping and then woke up SCREEEEAAAMING, and she always wakes up happy and jibber jabbering.  so d.l. went running to her, she had her arm stuck through a slat and down the side.  d.l. picked her up and Vi wouldn't move her arm.  it was completely limp.  she then tried to calm her down with suckie, bottle (which is THE BEST THING IN THE WORLD to Vi), and cuddles... nothing stopped the SCREAMING, so she phoned me. 

My heart is at this point on the ground outside being walked on by winos... that's for another day... so i gather myself and go back inside to get my purse and tell the others that they're just gonna have to finish the end of day stuff with out me as i have to take my not even 6 month old to the hospital.  now try and say words when you can barely catch your breath, and are shaking in fear...  ya ya i may have over reacted a little, but i don't think so.  my precious little angel was in pain and i wasn't there to help her.  d.l. and her husband are AWEWSOME!!! and my kids love them, but it's not the same...  i finally got everything together and got the dayhome, where i'm usually greated with ear to ear smiles from Vi, but instead today i saw a pale faced, tear streaked, puffy eyed baby in pain...  they had Grey ready for me, so i got them all buckled in the van, Vi with only 1 arm in the straps to avoid hurting her even more... called daddy, who's on call with the ambulance and had to call in and say HE was going to the hospital, and he met us there...

when we arrived it wasn't busy so we got right in which was nice... but the nurse was a hose beast!  she was taking vitals and Vi was SCREAMING, did i mention she never SCREAMS!!!  anyway, the nurse says, "oh i think maybe that's just a temper she's got"... i wanted to punch her in the face... the SCREAMS were in pain!! and any normal person listening would have known that.  i just let it go, i could have given her a piece of my temper though and she's lucky i didn't!  then the doctor came in, and she had to tug and pull, and push and twist my lil munchkins arm all over:(  and again the SCREAMING began... and stopped as soon as the owie arm was left alone.  then it was off to x-rays... she HATED it, but the x-ray tech was great and super fast. 

all is well, no breaks, and no dislocations.... just pulled muscles or twisted something or others... yup that's the diagnoses:)  she said to just watch it and if it gets worse they'll do more x-rays to see if there's any change... she's asleep now, the tylenol they gave her helped with that.  and she was using her arm a bit before she went to bed, so i'm thinking everything will be fine.  i called d.l. and she was SO happy and SO upset that it happened at her place... they pride themselves on how few accidents and booboos they have there... but really, they're kids, they're meant to get bumped around and visit the hospital a few times in their lives:)  i just wish she would have waited until she was a little older to require an x-ray:) 

by the way she weighed 8.6kg... and for us normal folk, thats 18.9lbs!!! yup you read that right. she's 5 and a half months old and weighs 18.9lbs! she's our little porker:)

Grandpa

I really want to write down my feelings about my grandpas passing, but i don't want to butcher it.... i don't want to miss something... i don't know where to begin...

so for now just a sigh...

I love you Gramps.  I'll see you in my dreams.

snow

it's september 16th, 9:30ish, and it's snowing just south of here.

there's still broccoli, tomatoes, cucmber, carrots, onions, garlic and potatoes in the garden.  Grrr i meant to get to that today, i knew the S word was coming... and if not the the F word (freezing) was definitely on its way over.

I have to stop writing now, i'm shivering just thinking about it.

sickies continued

Well yesterday turned out to not only offer a lot of snot from the tinies, but Vi decided it would be a good day to barf ALL DAY LONG!!!  She ate fine, and played happily like normal, but every now and then she would *cough* *cough* *yack*...  No fever, from any of us.... Just a bit of crankiness....

Tuesday G went to work at 7am and didn't get home until 10pm, yesterday he worked from 7:30am until 1:30am (yup am), and then was called in again this morning around 10ish and for sure wont be home until atleast 6pm, and thats if their transfer goes smoothly and there are no calls after that.... he's still on call tomorrow, and then a day shift saturday... He's already worked more than a full time job this week in only 2 an a half days.  This moning when he got called in, he got out of bed and came to the kitchen to take tylenol and drink some water... Grey heard him and ran over to him, pointed at him and said "DADDY, HOME".... my heart hurt.  i hate weeks when we barely see him.... Ya he's an EMT so he works a lot, I would just feel more like sharing him with his job if the majority of the work he does wasn't driving drunks around the province!!  If he were actually saving lives of people that deserved it, instead of being a taxi driver for the alcoholics.

Enough ranting... I get to go shopping soon!! For what you ask? for NEW CLOTHES!! I'm going back to work, and the clothes i have that are "suitable" for work fit me, but oddly, and i've had them for a LONG ass time.  They used to fit nicely, but now my body has morphed into this weird shape... the children are to blame!  I know i want to get a few basics that i can mix and match, but i'm not sure what to get, what colors to go for, and what shapes are best for me... i just ask that i get a few hours to myself in the city to look, and not have to deal with whining while trying to make decisions... i also have to get a pair (or 2) of shoes for work, and maybe a couple bras that don't have the underwire jammed back into them and sewed shut:) 

Boo for going through old pictures... it almost gives me the kick in the ass i need to get up and lose some weight!

Here's a couple little somethings to hopefully end this on a happy note:)  Last night Grey asked to "HOLD! HOLD! HOLD!"  he's all about holding Vi these last couple days, which he doesn't understand is rather difficult given she's a MONSTER! 





oh the sickies

Bunny had her 4 month shots yesterday... She screamed, and Grey cried because she was upset... Grey banged his head and cried, and Bunny cried because he was and there can't just be one sobbing baby at the pity party.  The nurses thought it was so cute the empathy they have for one another, i just wanted the crying to stop, i don't have enough hands to hold both whiners:)

While waiting to get in for her shots Grey played with a couple other kids, who of course were coughing and sneezing and putting toys in their mouths.... Vi sat in her carseat watching the kids play, and she sat under the cloud of germs floating around...  Needless to say we're ALL coughing and sneezing and boogering today!!  Yippee!!!  It just better not be the cold that is putting people in the hospital from developing pneumonia!  I've got a friend with her year old in the hospital on an IV because she wont eat she's so sick:(

Well i should get back to wiping snot now.  This is going to be a WONDERFUL day!



just for a smile.... my lil CocaRobot



My Kidlets in motion.

That my friends is my life now... A 4month old that knows how to roll around, and a 20month old that can recite you the dictionary... Never a dull moment in this house, even if you try really really hard for one:)

I meant to just put a video of Vi rolling, but I thought I would share a little slice of both my monsters.

The color red...

I forgot to say that the other day... Friday to be exact.  I became a woman again.  Oh yay for me. 

G said "oh so that's why you've been a..."  and stopped there, i said "a mega hosebeast, bitch snatch?"  he replied "your words, not mine"...

At least the sun beat the clouds today, not that it's sending much heat our way anymore:(

The past few days...

2 days ago we all went to visit the potential dayhome and meet the couple that run it.  I had all kinds of worries in my head and heart before we got there... When we left I felt like my kids going there would be better than being home with me!  I guess this new full time position at work openning and a dayhome spot being available at the same time must mean that it's time.  Time to go back to work everyday, time to send my kids off to daycare, time to cut the cord.  Ya Ya Vi is only 4 months, but she'll be 5 months by the time they're going there all the time, and they wont be there every day either...  The days G is off he'll have them at home, and then I get them all to myself (I guess I'll share with G a bit) on the evenings and weekends!! 

I've had people tell me I should do this.  That it will be good for me, and for my kids, and for my sanity... I know it will be, it's just hard to totally trust other people to spend SSSOOOO much time with my babies, practically raising them.  And then I've had people telling me that I should stay home as long as I can, that I have the rest of my life to have to work... But I don't think this is about HAVING to work, it's more about WANTING to work.  I guess if I want to work, and there's the job I would like to do (it's nothing super fufilling, just better than some other jobs) and someone to take care of my kids all happening at the same time, then I guess the universe is trying to tell me something EH?!



Then last night we went to my staff party.  It was a BBQ around a fire.  For 2 straight days before it RAINED and RAINED and RAINED... Did it stop for the party? Nope, it kept right on raining.... They had set up tarps to keep the rain off our heads, there really isn't anything to do about the cold other than sitting close to the fire and keeping your cup full of some happy drink:)  Despite the cold and raininess it was an awesome time!  It was the first of many staff parties that I wasn't pregnant or nursing (well i'm nursing, but she'll take a bottle just fine) so i was able to join in on the drunken conversation:)  Being the sober one around a bunch of drunkos for so long gets a little old... Drunk people think they're so much more interesting than they really are!! But as long as I was one of them it was a blast:)  Oh and G wasn't working or on call so he was drinking right along side me!!  Anyhoo... We went, we drank, we walked home, we slept, then had a GREAT; hubby cooked, bacon and eggs greasy breakfast.


Today was a lazy jammie day!   We made playdough, and watched movies.  I love JAMMIE DAYS!!!!

A Blog...

Well, here I am...

Not sure why today is the day to start this, I guess because both babies are asleep in their beds... sigh...

I guess I need to learn a few things about how this works... I do want this to be an outlet for me, but I don't want it to turn into a total bitch fest.  I need to learn how to post pics, how to decide my topics, and how not to just ramble on... The first 2 will be fairly easy I'm sure, the latter probably not so much!  I'm a rambler...  So be warned...  If you read, you may be bored out of your freakin mind, but I'm sure there will be a few moments of witty godliness:)

I also apologise that this may be the only post with capital letters where they belong, I'm a little lazy when it comes to the shift key... Excess calories burned hitting that oddly placed button, and really if my Black Berry can recognize that I hit the space bar twice after a period; HELL I don't even have to hit the period, then why can't THIS machine know when to do it for me too?! 

Ok Ok Ok.
If you're reading this, you probably know the basics of who I am and what I do and for some odd reason you would like to know more...  I'm hoping to get to this thing once a day, even if it's for 2 words, but we all know how even the best of intentions turn out sometimes.

There's my cue coming from the other room..... a faint Mommy.... Mommy.... slowly building to actually requiring my attention.  So I'll sign off for now,  once again returning to the REAL world...

By the way I'm sorry for the obnoxious over use of purple on this page, I promise to change it, or just leave it to piss you all off:)