Grandpa

I really want to write down my feelings about my grandpas passing, but i don't want to butcher it.... i don't want to miss something... i don't know where to begin...

so for now just a sigh...

I love you Gramps.  I'll see you in my dreams.

snow

it's september 16th, 9:30ish, and it's snowing just south of here.

there's still broccoli, tomatoes, cucmber, carrots, onions, garlic and potatoes in the garden.  Grrr i meant to get to that today, i knew the S word was coming... and if not the the F word (freezing) was definitely on its way over.

I have to stop writing now, i'm shivering just thinking about it.

sickies continued

Well yesterday turned out to not only offer a lot of snot from the tinies, but Vi decided it would be a good day to barf ALL DAY LONG!!!  She ate fine, and played happily like normal, but every now and then she would *cough* *cough* *yack*...  No fever, from any of us.... Just a bit of crankiness....

Tuesday G went to work at 7am and didn't get home until 10pm, yesterday he worked from 7:30am until 1:30am (yup am), and then was called in again this morning around 10ish and for sure wont be home until atleast 6pm, and thats if their transfer goes smoothly and there are no calls after that.... he's still on call tomorrow, and then a day shift saturday... He's already worked more than a full time job this week in only 2 an a half days.  This moning when he got called in, he got out of bed and came to the kitchen to take tylenol and drink some water... Grey heard him and ran over to him, pointed at him and said "DADDY, HOME".... my heart hurt.  i hate weeks when we barely see him.... Ya he's an EMT so he works a lot, I would just feel more like sharing him with his job if the majority of the work he does wasn't driving drunks around the province!!  If he were actually saving lives of people that deserved it, instead of being a taxi driver for the alcoholics.

Enough ranting... I get to go shopping soon!! For what you ask? for NEW CLOTHES!! I'm going back to work, and the clothes i have that are "suitable" for work fit me, but oddly, and i've had them for a LONG ass time.  They used to fit nicely, but now my body has morphed into this weird shape... the children are to blame!  I know i want to get a few basics that i can mix and match, but i'm not sure what to get, what colors to go for, and what shapes are best for me... i just ask that i get a few hours to myself in the city to look, and not have to deal with whining while trying to make decisions... i also have to get a pair (or 2) of shoes for work, and maybe a couple bras that don't have the underwire jammed back into them and sewed shut:) 

Boo for going through old pictures... it almost gives me the kick in the ass i need to get up and lose some weight!

Here's a couple little somethings to hopefully end this on a happy note:)  Last night Grey asked to "HOLD! HOLD! HOLD!"  he's all about holding Vi these last couple days, which he doesn't understand is rather difficult given she's a MONSTER! 





oh the sickies

Bunny had her 4 month shots yesterday... She screamed, and Grey cried because she was upset... Grey banged his head and cried, and Bunny cried because he was and there can't just be one sobbing baby at the pity party.  The nurses thought it was so cute the empathy they have for one another, i just wanted the crying to stop, i don't have enough hands to hold both whiners:)

While waiting to get in for her shots Grey played with a couple other kids, who of course were coughing and sneezing and putting toys in their mouths.... Vi sat in her carseat watching the kids play, and she sat under the cloud of germs floating around...  Needless to say we're ALL coughing and sneezing and boogering today!!  Yippee!!!  It just better not be the cold that is putting people in the hospital from developing pneumonia!  I've got a friend with her year old in the hospital on an IV because she wont eat she's so sick:(

Well i should get back to wiping snot now.  This is going to be a WONDERFUL day!



just for a smile.... my lil CocaRobot



My Kidlets in motion.

That my friends is my life now... A 4month old that knows how to roll around, and a 20month old that can recite you the dictionary... Never a dull moment in this house, even if you try really really hard for one:)

I meant to just put a video of Vi rolling, but I thought I would share a little slice of both my monsters.

The color red...

I forgot to say that the other day... Friday to be exact.  I became a woman again.  Oh yay for me. 

G said "oh so that's why you've been a..."  and stopped there, i said "a mega hosebeast, bitch snatch?"  he replied "your words, not mine"...

At least the sun beat the clouds today, not that it's sending much heat our way anymore:(

The past few days...

2 days ago we all went to visit the potential dayhome and meet the couple that run it.  I had all kinds of worries in my head and heart before we got there... When we left I felt like my kids going there would be better than being home with me!  I guess this new full time position at work openning and a dayhome spot being available at the same time must mean that it's time.  Time to go back to work everyday, time to send my kids off to daycare, time to cut the cord.  Ya Ya Vi is only 4 months, but she'll be 5 months by the time they're going there all the time, and they wont be there every day either...  The days G is off he'll have them at home, and then I get them all to myself (I guess I'll share with G a bit) on the evenings and weekends!! 

I've had people tell me I should do this.  That it will be good for me, and for my kids, and for my sanity... I know it will be, it's just hard to totally trust other people to spend SSSOOOO much time with my babies, practically raising them.  And then I've had people telling me that I should stay home as long as I can, that I have the rest of my life to have to work... But I don't think this is about HAVING to work, it's more about WANTING to work.  I guess if I want to work, and there's the job I would like to do (it's nothing super fufilling, just better than some other jobs) and someone to take care of my kids all happening at the same time, then I guess the universe is trying to tell me something EH?!



Then last night we went to my staff party.  It was a BBQ around a fire.  For 2 straight days before it RAINED and RAINED and RAINED... Did it stop for the party? Nope, it kept right on raining.... They had set up tarps to keep the rain off our heads, there really isn't anything to do about the cold other than sitting close to the fire and keeping your cup full of some happy drink:)  Despite the cold and raininess it was an awesome time!  It was the first of many staff parties that I wasn't pregnant or nursing (well i'm nursing, but she'll take a bottle just fine) so i was able to join in on the drunken conversation:)  Being the sober one around a bunch of drunkos for so long gets a little old... Drunk people think they're so much more interesting than they really are!! But as long as I was one of them it was a blast:)  Oh and G wasn't working or on call so he was drinking right along side me!!  Anyhoo... We went, we drank, we walked home, we slept, then had a GREAT; hubby cooked, bacon and eggs greasy breakfast.


Today was a lazy jammie day!   We made playdough, and watched movies.  I love JAMMIE DAYS!!!!

A Blog...

Well, here I am...

Not sure why today is the day to start this, I guess because both babies are asleep in their beds... sigh...

I guess I need to learn a few things about how this works... I do want this to be an outlet for me, but I don't want it to turn into a total bitch fest.  I need to learn how to post pics, how to decide my topics, and how not to just ramble on... The first 2 will be fairly easy I'm sure, the latter probably not so much!  I'm a rambler...  So be warned...  If you read, you may be bored out of your freakin mind, but I'm sure there will be a few moments of witty godliness:)

I also apologise that this may be the only post with capital letters where they belong, I'm a little lazy when it comes to the shift key... Excess calories burned hitting that oddly placed button, and really if my Black Berry can recognize that I hit the space bar twice after a period; HELL I don't even have to hit the period, then why can't THIS machine know when to do it for me too?! 

Ok Ok Ok.
If you're reading this, you probably know the basics of who I am and what I do and for some odd reason you would like to know more...  I'm hoping to get to this thing once a day, even if it's for 2 words, but we all know how even the best of intentions turn out sometimes.

There's my cue coming from the other room..... a faint Mommy.... Mommy.... slowly building to actually requiring my attention.  So I'll sign off for now,  once again returning to the REAL world...

By the way I'm sorry for the obnoxious over use of purple on this page, I promise to change it, or just leave it to piss you all off:)