Cakes, cookies, cupcakes and more...

I want to bake.  And i want to sell it.

I made my first "for sale" cake this weekend... It was a 3D Winnie the Pooh cake, and i think he turned out awesomely inside and out!  I was given so much encouragement from the other people at the party, it made me feel like i could actually make some money, working at home!

I just hope that if i do start this, that i will have the help around home that i need... if i have an order it's going to be WORK, not just play... it will be difficult to balance between work at home mom and stay at home mom... i think i'm over thinking this, it's not like i'm going to be crazy busy or anything... a cake here and some cupcakes there... i think i'll manage:)

and now for some pics of the cakes i've made in the past:

This was Greyson's first birthday cake

Greyson's 2nd Birthday cake, Muno from Yo Gabba Gabba

Violette (Bunny)'s 1st Birthday cake

First cake i was paid for

His insides:)

Boobs part 2

They're good...
Negative...
Normal...

YAY!!!

Boobs!

Got my first mammogram today.... ouch times 4... ya only 2 boobs, but 2 views each....
Then I got my first breast ultrasound, interesting.
Results to come i guess.

My baby girl is 1.

Last week Violette Bunny turned 1.  My tiny little baby girl is now a mumbling, bumbling, grumbling beast... She is almost the size of her brother, she's got 8 teeth, and is finally growing some hair, and it's CURLY!!

So much has happened in the last year.  Good, bad, and ugly.  We had some sadness, some crazy rollercoaster rides, and some regular old regular-ness...

The second child is much different than the first, Greyson was asking to go potty at 8 months, saying words at 9, and sleeping through the night at 10... Vi is doing none of those things... well she says nonononononono, mama, daddy, and nananana when she's hungry.  Greyson's baby book is overflowing, and Vi's has some things completely made up because i forgot to fill it in....  Grey walked the week before his first birthday, Bunny has no need for such frivolity.

Even though she is obviously severely ignored and therefore much less advanced than her brother, she has already figured out that if she screams loud enough, Greyson will get in trouble:)  Or if she wakes up at 2:30am and cries out, that Mommy person will bring her a bottle and snuggle her back to sleep.  Or if she looks up at Daddy with her big bunny eyes and reaches up at him he'll pick her up and cuddle her deep into his neck.  And don't get me started on how she turns her Grandpa into mush when she coos at him!

My little girl is now moving into the next phase of her life.  She's going to learn all kinds of new things this year, and i can only hope that i do an OK job teaching her right from wrong, hot from cold, and love from hate.

well, i guess that's one answer

not pregnant.  i didn't get to see the doctor, just the u/s tech.  her and a dr reviewed this one and the one from feb 14 to compare them... the tech said they're not even sure i was pregnant in the first place.

i asked her if everything looked normal in there then, and her response was, "well i can tell you that it looks like you're NOT pregnant, and you should follow up with the dr back home once she gets the report"... so i don't know if that means she's not allowed to say that everything looks normal, or that i'm not pregnant, but there's something going on that the dr needs to tell me....

cast is off

Greyson is now cast free, and had his first BUBBLE BATH in 5 weeks!!!  He had a blast!  and Vi wanted in SOOO bad, but it was his special bath all to himself!

will be back to writing soon, once all has calmed down and i go for my next ultrasound to find out what's going on in there now.  Oh ya, i guess i could mention that the doc gave me the results from the one i had on the 14th....  there was (is?) a life in there... yuppers people, that means hubs spermies can get through birth control!  AAAHHHH!!!!  but since sunday i've been bleeding and cramping, so back to the doctors i go to find out what's up now.

linky name thingy

just a question, if anyone is reading...
how do i make it so when i comment on someone else's blog MY name is a link to my blog.  i know it's gotta be something simple, but most days i'm below the poverty live when it comes to brainage.

Valentines day.

    I had my ultra sound today, NO I'M NOT PREGNANT!!! i've been having some pain and such lately, wont get into that right now.... so at work i had to drink a BUNCH of water while serving clients, and then go for the scan on my lunch break. 
    I've never been complimented on my ability to fill my bladder before; but apparently i'm excellent at it.... maybe i should add that to my resume.
    I got to the hospital with seconds to spare and go down stairs to the lab to check in and they ask me if i checked in upstairs at the main desk... NO i did not, i've never had to do that before!  So with my excellently filled pee trap i go back up the stairs, check in with the woman; whom i might add must have been training and dropped out of english in grade 3.  The other woman at the desk who i'm guessing was "training" her was on the phone having a seemingly personal conversation.... so there i stand, cross legged, tapping my finger nails impatiently (pun intended) and rudely with the fate of my dry pants in her SLOW AS A SLOTH, single finger typing hands.... "how do you spell your last name again?" "P-E-R-T... no no no oh i see you now".
    Finally i get my hall pass and head back down the stairs of joy to the lab, lay down on the table almost ready to get the ultra sound under way and the techs phone rings... "hello? oh hi how's it going? ya i'm about to do an U/S right now.... oh uuummmm i already had my lunch break....." door closes behind the lady. there i lay, once again these people don't understand how EXCELLENTLY i've filled my bladder!  She comes back, and dumps a blob of really warm goo on my lower abdomen, which instantly makes my vagina want to let go.... Queue compliment on my bladder.... like really! come on, who talks about someones bladder in a flattering fashion?  what ever.... we're almost done and i can imagine my bum hitting a lovely cold public toilet seat and setting forth a flood no man hath seen before.


    after that i ran home to gobble down some lunch.  
    Daddy was home with the kids today and i was greeted  to Greyson and his "mommy's here!!" and then "CARD MOMMY! CARD!!" there was chocolate, flowers and a card on the table...  it was all very sweet, even if the card had a fart joke in it:) i don't really care much for valentines day, i'd rather come home to flowers on the table on, say, march 7th, just because he thought of doing so.  ya ya i know men need a reminder, but still i think romance is more, well, romantic if it's unexpected.  How ever Thank you so much hun!  I love you  to infinity and beyond...  i wanted to add some romantic star wars quote, but i couldn't find any, so you'll have to settle for toy story.


oh ya... when i was getting ready to leave the ultra sound office, i jokingly asked the tech if i could have a copy of someone else's pregnancy sonogram, maybe one with twins, to give to hubs in a V-day card.... she laughed so hard she almost peed my pants too!

how to bottle a memory

The other night, while putting Violette down for the night, i decided instead of just plopping her in her crib as usual i would sit and suck up the moment, full on Dyson style.
I smelled her, i rubbed her, i squeezed her, i kissed her, and hugged her... i may have even nibbled her just a bit on the cheek, only to remember it's supple apricot like fuzziness.  I made sure to consciously bottle that feeling and smell and store it on my spice rack of memories.  Hopefully when i want to pull it down one day 16 years from now to remind me she was once a sweet little thing it's still as fresh as the day i put it there.

after that i went in and did the same to Greyson.

there is nothing in this world as beautiful as the love and trust between a child and their mother or father.

since i would never risk waking one of my monsters here are a couple pics of them at their best:)

how do i quiet my voices?

Tomorrow is my "last day" of work... i'm going casual, but not sure when i'll be able to work again.

so many things to think about,
do i take in a couple kids?  i've already got people asking me to.

do i just spend some time with MY kids?

will i go crazy?

how do i stop worrying?

will money run out?

will Hubs be worked to the bone?

will my babes like being home and away from the other kids?

will my friendship with my boss still last?  will she resent me for leaving?  will we still talk as much as we did at work?

am i making the right choices?

will i do a good job raising my kids?

will they grow up to be good people?

is it really my fault if they don't?

why am i thinking that far ahead when i can't even decide about tomorrow?

broken bones update

So yesterday I was home on my lunch break and my phone rang.  It was dayhome lady, she said "Greyson hurt himself."  He was climbing on a crib trying to see Vi who they were just putting down for her nap...  This is something that he apparently does everyday they're there.  But this time when he was told to get down instead of climbing down nicely he jumped backwards, landing crouched down like a frog.  He then started crying and saying OWIE and HURTING RIGHT THERE... They thought he was maybe faking, since he's started doing that for attention, but when he wouldn't stand up on his leg, or stop crying they thought "oh shit, he's really hurt".  So they phoned me to come get him and get him checked out.

I took him to the hospital and daddy met me there.  It was very busy in the ER so the doc sent us in for xrays and would get to them when he could.  Once he found out there was possibly a fracture found on the xray he took really good care of us.  Side note, the doctors kid goes to the same day home as Grey and Vi:)

So now my boy has a cast from his toes to above his knee.  He is normally a VERY active little man, so this whole thing is making him SOOO mad.  He's learned today how to stand up holding onto the couch, and scoot around a little.  Last night was a little long, thanks to drugs it wasn't as painful for him as it could have been.

Everyone keeps telling me their stories about their broken limbs as a child and how it sucked, but everything got better.... All i can think of is, HOW am i going to go grocery shopping, HOW am i going to bathe him, WHAT can we do to occupy his time.... i know it's going to heal, but i want to take his pain away, and i want it better NOW....

I wish he didn't think he was spiderman!

 His jacket is on in this one, because he thought if he got to put his jacket on we would go home:)

Learning to stand

broken bones.

Greyson fell at daycare, and now he has a cast from his toes to above his knee...
i don't have much time right now, but i'll update later or tomorrow.

oh what a beautiful day

My boss is out for the week, her sister is ill and she had to go to help her out with her daughter.
A coworker called in sick.
Another coworkers children's daycares power and heat were broken, so she had to take the morning off. (there are only 7 people that work in our branch in the first place including office staff and myself)
It was -43 with the windchill this morning.
The van had a flat tire.
First thing I did at work was paper cut the knuckle on my middle finger.


Yes it was a wonderful day back after 4 days locked in the house with a sick boy...


cup half full thought: it could always be worse, it could always be worse, it could always be worse...

a brief update

Just bringing you up to date, not sure who YOU are.... not necessarily in any type of order:


-went back to work, full time
-kids went to a day home, part time and part time with daddy at home
-kids grow, and learn, and speak, and crawl, and push out teeth, and poop an uncountable amount of times
-my grandfather passed away
-my baby boy turned 2!
-christmas, at home, that's all i have to say
-snow snow snow, cold cold cold
-kids are sick again and again and again
-Vi choked at day home, day home lady gets out piece of plastic dropped by another hooligan they take care of:)
-Grey had croupe, pink eye, stomach flu.... oh the things we do as mothers, more on that later maybe
-got a new dish washer, couch, and paint for the living room... then realized with 2 little monsters, WHEN ARE WE GOING TO BE ABLE TO PAINT THE LIVING ROOM????
-decided that i need to be home with my children.  
-gave notice at work to finish the end of january, was talked into staying on "casual"
-cleaned up more vomit in one night than i ever want to in my life and there wasn't even a party.


That's pretty much all i can think about right now.  i think now that i'm going to be home more and want to focus on bettering my family; which includes bettering myself, i just may be on here more often.